Soldier Boys

Zax doesn't mind. Fayt and Albel don't mind. I think everyone else minds. I wish they weren't scary. I wish they weren't so triggering to other people. Why can't I have my wings? They're mine! I want to use them. They're part of me. I don't want to hide them always. I'm so tired of pretending they don't exist.

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As you probably know, I started going through our old journal (Flash Roses) and deleting/making private all of the entries. I started at the oldest and have been slowly making my way towards the newest. Unsurprisingly, there's not much I want to save.

Actually reading those old entries leaves me feeling very... Well, off-balance. Creeped out. Unsettled. We were for all intents and purposes 'integrated' at that point in time, although looking back we know we were in fact median. Our awareness of or median state came and went with the tides. Reading those entries, it's disturbing to be able to pick out the individual voices. Schuldig was a much stronger influence than I remember him being, but Farfarello is there. And occassionally, reading these old entries, I catch glimpses of myself. Very faint glimpses, but they're there. For some reason that disturbs me most of all.

I have to say I'm deleting 99% of the entries. Those are days I don't want to look back on. None of us want to look back on them. I suspect when I'm through sorting entries we will go through and delete and purge the journal. We don't like it. We don't need it. We don't want it around. For some reason I feel like the archives of that journal are like some dirty little secret. Like something I don't want people to see. Not because they're BAD, but because I read them and think, "that's not us, that's not me." It's all such a jumble. And, even more than not wanting to read the journal, I don't care to read the comments, few though they are.

There is another part of me that doesn't care about the journal, but looks at the comments and says "I don't care what you said at the time. I don't care what you think. I don't care about you." It's like the flickering independence that asserts itself by drowning previous relationships and elements of present relationships.

I have three memes to fill out from teh old journal. I liked the questions and the thoroughness, and wanted to do them again for myself. I suspect Zax may follow suit perhaps tomorrow and fill out the answers for himself. I'm going to do them in separate posts, because they are long.

Answering these not as/for the body or the system, but as myself.

A
- Available: Taken, baby.
- Age: Mostly 19.
- Annoyance: People hurting Seph's feelings.
- Allergic: Nothing that I know of.
- Animal: Dogs. No really. :\
- Actor: I dunno. Jackie Chan!

B
- Beer: Sure, but not much.
- Birthday/Birthplace: Summer, Gongaga, Gojira Province.
- Best Friends: Sephy and Nai <3
- Body Part on the sex you're attracted to: Hair, eyes, legs...
- Best feeling in the world: Freedom.
- Blind or Deaf: On the one hand, I'd never get to see the one I love. On the other, I'd never get to hear his beautiful voice. :(
- Best weather: A warm sunny day.
- Been in Love: Absolutely.
- Been bitched out?: Hah, I live with SEPH.
- Been on stage?: Yep.
- Believe in yourself?: I BELIEVE IN YOU, WHO BELIEVES IN ME.
- Believe in life on other planets: Yep.
- Believe in miracles: I'm a walking miracle.
- Believe in Magic: I believe in SCIENCE.
- Believe in God: Nah.
- Believe in Satan: Not at all.
- Believe in Santa: I dunno.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: Sorta.
- Believe in Evolution: I believe anyone who doesn't is an absolute moron.

C
- Car: Nah, I like motorcycles. Seph's was damn sexy. How he straddled that thing... mmm.
- Candy: Skittles.
- Colour: Blue. Maybe orange and yellow, too.
- Cried in school/at work: Yeah.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Strawberry.
- Chinese/Mexican: Mexican.
- Cake or pie: Pie.
- Countries to visit: All over the place.

D
- Day or Night: Day.
- Dream vehicle: Hardy Daytona. I agree with Seph.
- Danced: Mmhmm.
- Dance in the rain?: Seph loves rain. So yeah.
- Dance in the middle of the street?: Nah.
- Do the splits?: Inworld? Yeah.

E
- Eggs: Hard-boiled.
- Eyes: Blue.
- Everyone has: a heart.
- Ever failed a class? Seph would KILL me.

F
- First crush: Aw man... Honestly? Sephiroth. He was just so cute, with that crazy hair and those big green eyes....
- Full name: Zaxali Donovan Fair.
- First thoughts waking up: Damn, I bet I look sexy right now. Or.... Mmmm Seph.
- Food: Yum yum.

G
- Greatest Fear: I dunno... I don't think I have a greatest fear. But a lot of things scare me.
- Giver or taker: I like to dish it out.
- Goals: Be happy. Be healthy.
- Gum: Minty goodness.
- Get along with your parents?: Yeah, kinda.
- Good luck charms: Seph's dog tags.

H
- Hair Colour: Black spiky dreadlocks.
- Height: 6'4
- Happy: Honestly? Not often.
- Holidays: Love them.
- How do you want to die: Flying.
- Health freak?: I guess.
- Hate: Some things, some people.

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: Green or blue.
- Hair Colour: Depends.
- Height: Shorter than me.
- Clothing Style: Doesn't matter, so long as they can work it. But damn does leather get me hot. ;)
- Characteristics: Patient, loving, kind.
- Ice Cream: Strawberry.
- Instrument: Hmm... Piano. Sephiroth is so beautiful when he plays.

J
- Jewelry: Seph's dog tags.
- Job: SOLDIER, Brigadier General, 1st Class.

K
- Kids: Cute, but sorta annoying.
- Kickboxing or karate: Wrestling.
- Keep a journal?: Sort of.

L
- Longest Car Ride: 2 weeks.
- Love: I love love.
- Letter: Hmmm. N.
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yeah.
- Love at first sight: Nope.

M
- Milk flavour: Chocolate.
- Movie: I dunno.
- Mooned anyone?: Heheheehe.
- Marriage: One day I'll marry Seph.
- Motion sickness?: Nah.
- McD's or BK: PIG DISGUSTING.

N
- Number of Siblings: Only child, babay.
- Number of Piercings: One.
- Number: 48.

O
- Overused Phrases: Hey bro.
- One wish: If I tell you it won't come true!
- One phobia: Hmm.

P
- Place you'd like to live: Someplace high with a good view of the stars.
- Pepsi/Coke: Rootbeer baby!

Q
- Quail: They're hella cute.
- Questionnaires: Cool story bro.

R
- Reason to cry: Sephy's upset.
- Reality T.V.: TV sucks.
- Radio Station: The Dot was pretty tight.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: Yeah.

S
- Song: Ummm... I don't know.
- Shoe size: Big?
- Sushi: Yes plz.
- Skipped school: Seph would KILL ME.
- Slept outside: No shit, Sherlocke.
- Seen a dead body?: Again.
- Smoked?: Yeah.
- Skinny dipped?: Even better. Got SEPH to skinny dip.
- Shower daily?: Every other day.
- Sing well?: Nah.
- In the shower?: no way.
- Swear?: Shit yeah!
- Stuffed Animals?: D'awww.
- Single/Group dates: Single.
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries.
- Scientists need to invent: SPACE EXPLORATION.

T
- Time for bed: 2-4am
- Thunderstorms: Awesome.
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: Nah.

U
- Unpredictable: Exciting.
- Under the influence?: Nah. Mako.
- Understanding?: Not very.

V
- Vegetable you hate: LETTUCE. Yuck.
- Vegetable you love: Pretty much everything else.
- Vacation spot: Mmm... Costa Del Sol.

W
- Weakness: Seph.
- When you grow up: I want to be a caterpillar!
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: I dunno. Maybe Schuldig? Or Raz.
- Who makes you laugh the most: Nagi. No really, kids got a wicked sense of humor.
- Worst feeling: Being alone.
- Wanted to be a model?: Nah.
- Where do we go when we die: The Promised Lan.
- Worst weather: Ice cold and wet.
- Walk with a book on your head?: Who can't?

X
- X-Rays: look at mah insides!

Y
-Year it is now: 2009.
-Yellow: Serendipity.

Z
- Zoo animal: I like the stupid ones like tapirs and shit.
- Zodiac sign: I'm a... Something.

"Where's the difference between 'forgiving' and 'letting them get away with it'?"

Sephiroth: I think the difference lies with the person doing the forgiving. To the person being forgiven I don't think there's much of a difference, honestly. But mentally, if you're saying "I'm going to let you get away with that for x reason" it's not the same as "okay, I forgive you." You might forgive someone because of x reason, but... Well, to me it seems forgiveness is an acknowledgement of wrong doing. You're saying that person hurt you, perhaps terribly, but you're strong enough to let it go and move on. In a sense, 'letting them get away with it' is different. You're saying you can't handle what they did, or they hurt you very much, but you aren't strong enough to seek justice or forgive them.

Zax: Well, Seph takes the philosophical view. I think the difference is a little more simple. Forgiving someone is just that. You're forgiving them. You aren't going to dwell on it blah blah blah. Letting them get away with it is like... Like "You hit me with a baseball bat but I don't feel like going to court." Or... like three strikes and you're out. You can get away with shit the first few times and then I'm coming after you.

"And where's the line between 'having justice' and 'being way to revengeful'?"

Zax: I think the line is really 'when does this become overkill'. Justice is an eye for an eye or the equivalent of one. Being too vengeful is dismembering their entire family for an eye.

Sephiroth: I think it's also important to remember that no one is an impartial judge. Something like rape, for example, will seem like the most terrible offense imaginable when talking about your own experience, but is it really? Does rape call for, like Zax said, the dismemberment of the offending party's family? Likely not. But when you're the offended party, it seems like it IS the proper response.

but I don't know what to say. I guess I'm just frustrated. In some ways we're advancing forward in our plans much quicker than I'd anticipated. In other ways I'm waiting for the inevitable crash. It's not... It's not pessimism. At this point I think it's realism. In a sense, what goes up must come down.

I hate long-haul work weeks like this. It's the same as if we were in school again. I don't have enough time to be ME, and when I can be me I don't know what to do with myself. I end up dwelling on things that happened back home. I guess it's natural. When I have to put up a front and pretend to be someone else nearly 20 hours of every day it's almost expected that I'd start having minor identity crises.

Still, I don't like it. At times it almost feels like I'm defining myself based on what I did and who I was fifteen years ago. Because you see I never focus on what I did those final few years before Nibelheim. Looking back on it, sometimes I feel like Zax and I became so jaded during that time... I always think of the "happy" times. When Zax and I were young and dancing around eachother without ever really connecting the way we would later on. I think of the long walks across the base in winter, and sharing my coat with Angeal's apprentice. I think of the hours spent in transport trucks and country inns, napping with the only person I could trust at my side and discussing all the world's secrets and wonders.

Other times I start dwelling on the wrong things.

Something about the Jenova experiment... It... I don't know what it did, but something about it destroys personalities and identities. I'm almost sure of that. First, there was me. I defined myself purely by my military accomplishments. Until Zax, and even for a long time after, I didn't particularly think of myself as a person. Sure, I had an identity, but it wasn't like everyone else. In a sense I was a nobody. And then there was Zax, and Angeal and Genesis too in a way. Even beyond hero worship they were all trying to warp themselves into 'something else.' At first it was just Genesis' mad jealousy. He didn't just want what I had. He wanted to BE me, even if that meant grinding me into a smear of blood in the process. And then there was Angeal, never quite sure who he was or what he stood for. He was an honorable and great soldier, no doubt. But he wasn't anything beyond that. Once upon a time he and Gen had been young farm boys, but as the Jenova cells advanced they became like puppets.

And Zax... He started out wanting to be just like Angeal, his mentor. Carrying his sword, adopting his mannerisms. The normal hero worship bit. But then... As his treatments progressed it became more sinister. He got an edge to him. He got scary. I started seeing traces of what I had seen in Genesis. Just traces, of course, but it was enough to scare me. And the longer we were together, the stranger it seemed to get. That twisted thing seemed to turn it's eyes to me. But I WAS Jenova's son, and so in Zax it didn't want to crush me. It wanted to do anything in it's power to be close to me, though.

And then of course there was Cloud...

*sigh*

I should have had Zax name our journal "Storytime with Sephiroth."

Well, a friend asked me to talk about the remnants a bit. First off... Well, I never came back after I died. I mean, in the movie there's the final showdown and all of that and... Well, I never came back during the game, either. I fell into the mako and then Jenova used me to project a copy that Cloud followed all over the world.

After that, well... Jenova used the remains of my body and what she'd taken from my mind to create a new Sephiroth. But it didn't quite go as planned, so she created the three using my remains and some of her own cell matter. As for the questions...

 1] what kind of people were they? I mean, at least  *acts* if personality can't be described from that. So like, maybe ad 1] will be how they acted 2] what kind of personality you suppose they had based on that
Well, Kadaj was... Childish. I think that would be the best description. He was supposed to be my rage, I believe. Children can be incredibly cruel, especially before their moral compass developes. Kadaj was like that. He was also incredibly self-centered and stubborn. He would throw tantrums at the drop of a hat. Overall, very immature. But he did have his good side too, of course. He desperately wanted approval from his brothers and 'mother', and me.
Yazoo was very quiet. I think, of the three, he was the most like me. He was by far the most analytical of the bunch, and very cold. I have a feeling even though he wasn't the favored remnant, he was the one really in charge.
And Loz. He was, of course, my strength. I don't think JENOVA really understands that kind of thing, though, because he was also my kindness.

3] was there any co-consciousness from your side? And from theirs?
No co-conciousness. At the time I thought of them as just clones. Actually, that's all they were really. I didn't have much of a part in the calamity or meteorfall. Kadaj did speak to me sometimes, though, through the lifestream. Just little thoughts here and there.

4] Could you some way of intuit them coming, some form of 'predict' their appearance?
Not particularly. JENOVA had suffered a blow after meteor, but so long as her cells lived somewhere everyone knew she wasn't gone for good. I knew she was planning something. I thought she'd use the clones rather than me for it, but there it is.

5] Were they 'people' in that sense or rather some manifestations of Jenova's will only taking its more concrete form as they learned to live in the physical world...
They were... both. If you take a piece of one person, and a piece of another, and squish them together until they sort of fit, is it a person? I think they were people, forever wholly dependent on JENOVA or myself.

6] What much of personality can be supposed was 'theirs'? What was Jenova's? Or eventually, what kind of drive could Jenova's will be for them?
Most of the personality was bits and pieces of mine, as I said earlier. JENOVA really didn't have a personality. She viewed humans entirely as their genetic code, soemthing that could be spliced and splintered as much as she needed. As I said last question, they were completely dependent on her. I'm sure they could have functioned on their own with enough time, but they had no life without her. I think without a guiding force they'd be lost.

7] What kind of drive was Jenova for *you*, from the bits you remem?
She was never any kind of 'drive'. During Nibelheim I literally had no control over my body at all, once she took hold. I was left a prisoner in my own mind. When I fell into the mako in the reactor, that was basically the end of my influence over events. After that it was entirely clones and JENOVAs projections. Though... Well, there were points when I took control of her projections myself, actually. I managed to buy Cloud a lot of time, I think. For example, the Sephiroth in the north crater, the one who... Showed Cloud the truth about Nibelheim. That was a physical clone that JENOVA had been puppeteering, but for a little while I managed to sneak into it's head.

8] -compare the two, how it effected you and how do you suppose it effected them- any similarities?
I don't feel like going into this, sorry.

9] What about biology- what formed them? How did their /bodies/ come to existence?
Answered above. :)

10] Would they travel the Stream?
The Planet destroyed their bodies, and the bits of their will taht were JENOVAs were reclaimed by her, I would imagine. As for the other parts... I believe they were assimilated into the lifestream, yes. But generally the lifestream isn't... It's not like in the movie, where people are people and they can be reborn and things. It's just energy. Some people, like me, are seperate from it. The Planet wouldn't except me because of the JENOVA cells in my body.

11] Did YOU travel the Stream? With what effects?
Yes, for many years. No effects, really. Just the psychological problems and things.

12] Could your will and theirs crash? Nh, 'collide'? What effects would it have on any parties and/or on Lifestream itself?
None. If we were to happen to meet in the lifestream either they would have just slipped on past like any other particle, or they would have simply rejoined me.

Answering these not as/for the body or the system, but as myself.

A
- Available: Nope, I belong to Zax.
- Age: 21-ish
- Annoyance: Zax. And other things.
- Allergic: Frogs. No really.
- Animal: Harpy Eagles. And just about everything else.
- Actor: Thomas Kretschmann, Christopher Walken (Actress would be Ellen Degeneres)

B
- Beer: None, thanks. Doesn't interract well with mako.
- Birthday/Birthplace: January 1st, Nibelheim, Nibel
- Best Friends: :3
- Body Part on the sex you're attracted to: Shoulders, necks, stomachs, noses and eyes...
- Best feeling in the world: Being with the people you love.
- Blind or Deaf: I'd rather lose my legs. I'm an artist and a musician, after all.
- Best weather: A little cool and overcast. Maybe slightly rainy.
- Been in Love: Yes.
- Been bitched out?: Multiple times.
- Been on stage?: Again, multiple times.
- Believe in yourself?: I don't know.
- Believe in life on other planets: Absolutely.
- Believe in miracles: I do.
- Believe in Magic: I believe magic and miracles have scientific explanations.
- Believe in God: Not as such.
- Believe in Satan: No.
- Believe in Santa: I do, actually.
- Believe in Ghosts/spirits: In a sense.
- Believe in Evolution: Until I am come across a reasonable, well thought-out scientific argument to the contrary, yes.

C
- Car: I used to have a motorcycle.
- Candy: Chocolates and sour fruit flavored things.
- Colour: Grey, black, white, silver, navy, green...
- Cried in school/at work: Several times.
- Chocolate/Vanilla: Depends on what it is.
- Chinese/Mexican: Can I pick both?
- Cake or pie: Boston cream pie.
- Countries to visit: Everywhere.

D
- Day or Night: Night.
- Dream vehicle: Hardy Daytona. ;)
- Danced: Frequently.
- Dance in the rain?: With Zax.
- Dance in the middle of the street?: No, but I did run outside naked once.
- Do the splits?: Used to.

E
- Eggs: Over medium.
- Eyes: Mako green.
- Everyone has: Feelings.
- Ever failed a class? No.

F
- First crush: ... Zax.
- Full name: Specimen J001S Sephiroth
- First thoughts waking up: Zaaaax. *cuddles*
- Food: Love food. I have a major sweet tooth.

G
- Greatest Fear: Losing Zax. Or maybe... having history repeat itself.
- Giver or taker: Receiver. ;)
- Goals: Too many to count.
- Gum: Yum.
- Get along with your parents?: Hah!
- Good luck charms: My coat.

H
- Hair Colour: White.
- Height: 6'1
- Happy: Rarely.
- Holidays: Depressing.
- How do you want to die: Standing up for what I believe in til my last breath.
- Health freak?: Kinda.
- Hate: Never.

I
(In guys/girls)
- Eye colour: Blue.
- Hair Colour: Depends on the person.
- Height: Presence is more important than height.
- Clothing Style: Who cares?
- Characteristics: Intelligent, serious, and patient.
- Ice Cream: Strawberry?
- Instrument: Any.

J
- Jewelry: I have a dog collar and bangles.
- Job: SOLDIER, Field Marshal General, 1st Class.

K
- Kids: Are scary.
- Kickboxing or karate: Both.
- Keep a journal?: Yes. Online.

L
- Longest Car Ride: 2 weeks.
- Love: Yes please.
- Letter: S
- Laughed so hard you cried: A few times.
- Love at first sight: Once. His name was Brad.

M
- Milk flavour: Strawberry.
- Movie: You expect me to pick just one?!
- Mooned anyone?: .... Yes.
- Marriage: Maybe some day.
- Motion sickness?: Yes, sometimes.
- McD's or BK: Both pig disgusting.

N
- Number of Siblings: Zero.
- Number of Piercings: None.
- Number: 6, 0

O
- Overused Phrases: I dunno...
- One wish: *makes wish*
- One phobia: People.

P
- Place you'd like to live: Somewhere I can be free.
- Pepsi/Coke: Sprite.

Q
- Quail: Never had it.
- Questionnaires: Hahahahahahahahaha

R
- Reason to cry: Homesickness.
- Reality T.V.: Don't watch TV.
- Radio Station: Used to listen to the Dot back in Reno. Nothing good down here.
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: No, but I can do a lot of other things with my tongue.

S
- Song: A Rush of Blood to the Head - Coldplay, Compliment - Collective Soul
- Shoe size: Um... Man-size.
- Sushi: Oishiiiiii.
- Skipped school: Never.
- Slept outside: I'm a SOLDIER.
- Seen a dead body?: Again, I'm a SOLDIER.
- Smoked?: Yes.
- Skinny dipped?: ..... Yes.
- Shower daily?: If our water heater wasn't broken...
- Sing well?: Oh yes.
- In the shower?: Someone might hear!
- Swear?: Of course.
- Stuffed Animals?: Cute.
- Single/Group dates: Single?
- Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries.
- Scientists need to invent: A way for me to be in my own body.

T
- Time for bed: 12-2am.
- Thunderstorms: Scary love.
- Touch your tongue to your nose?: No?

U
- Unpredictable: I suppose.
- Under the influence?: Uh...
- Understanding?: I try to be.

V
- Vegetable you hate: I love veggies.
- Vegetable you love: Spinach, asparagus....
- Vacation spot: Costa Del Sol

W
- Weakness: Kryptonite. :|
- When you grow up: I always knew I was going to be a soldier.
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: Hm... Naidee.
- Who makes you laugh the most: Zax. :D And maybe Farfarello?
- Worst feeling: Feeling unwanted.
- Wanted to be a model?: Heh, god no.
- Where do we go when we die: The Lifestream.
- Worst weather: Hot, sunny, and humid.
- Walk with a book on your head?: It's easy.

X
- X-Rays: What about them?

Y
-Year it is now: 2009.
-Yellow: Cheery. Not really my color though.

Z
- Zoo animal: Harpy eagles!
- Zodiac sign: Capricorn.

I think we are drawn to dogs because they are the uninhibited creatures we might be if we weren't certain we knew better.  They fight for honor at the first challenge, make love with no moral restraint, and they do not for all their marvelous instincts appear to know about death.  Being such wonderfully uncomplicated beings, they need us to do their worrying.  ~George Bird Evans,

I talk to him when I'm lonesome like; and I'm sure he understands.  When he looks at me so attentively, and gently licks my hands; then he rubs his nose on my tailored clothes, but I never say naught thereat.  For the good Lord knows I can buy more clothes, but never a friend like that.  ~W. Dayton Wedgefarth

My goal in life is to be as good of a person as my dog already thinks I am.  ~Author Unknown

The most affectionate creature in the world is a wet dog.  ~Ambrose Bierce

The greatest love is a mother's; then a dog's; then a sweetheart's.  ~Polish Proverb

Dogs feel very strongly that they should always go with you in the car, in case the need should arise for them to bark violently at nothing right in your ear.  ~Dave Barry


My dog is worried about the economy because Alpo is up to 99 cents a can.  That's almost $7.00 in dog money.  ~Joe Weinstein

I wonder what goes through his mind when he sees us peeing in his water bowl.  ~Penny Ward Moser

About a lot of things.

About the ethics of soulbonding, for one. I know many aren't complete persons, at least in the eyes of the host/bonder. But... I can't help but feel it's a form of slavery. Zax, Ender, and I began as bonds. I think in many ways I will never be able to truly forgive that girl for bringing us here. I understand that I am as much at fault as she is. She called when I was at my most vulnerable, and I accepted. I made the choice to come, not her.

But is that right? Is it fair for someone to say "You chose this," when my choice was between this and death? And surely at the time I would have chosen this anyway. If I were to make the choice again now, I think I'd choose to go back home, alive or dead. But hindsight is 20/20 and we have to make the most of what we're dealt. And chances are if going back meant losing Zax again... I wouldn't choose that.

I wonder how many other soulbonds began just as I did. How many were brought from their lives with no thought given to their own freedom of choice? I've heard it time and time again, "Oh, he's happier here. His old life sucked." That may be, but did you ask him? I have a feeling that very few people would accept that choice if presented to them. But these bonders continue to seek out and 'create' new bonds, because they think they're improving lives.

Zax knows a lot about freedom. I think he could teach them a thing or two. About what it means to die standing on your own to feet, rather than living chained in the darkness. He chose death, and to see the sunlight one last time. He chose pain and terror over being a mindless drone.

And what about the longterm consequences of it? Surely some, like me, end up as full people in their own right. But of course I always WAS a person in my own right, terminology be damned. However fragmented I might have seemed, I was still a person. I still had thoughts and feelings of my own. I had a past, and a future. A bonder, or someone with a muse, might think or say "I control this thing. It does my will because I created it." But is that really the case, or are they seeing what they want to see? And what about when they get bored of their muse? Are they condemning that person to become nothing but a fragment? Or will that person return peacefully to wherever they came from? Will that person just die, alone, in the recesses of someone's mindscape? And what if they become a full person in their own right, like I did? They have to forever live with the fact that they were someone's tool. A plaything. An imaginary friend.

I try not to be overly judgemental of soulbonders, just like I try to remain neutral to other people's relationships. However, just because I don't speak up doesn't mean I don't think. I wish more people would. The world would be a much better place if people considered the consequences of their actions.

-Sephiroth

This is Zax and Sephiroth of the Persona System. Blah blah blah yackitty schmackitty.